this is not about you

this is not about you
not about you anymore
it's about the girl
the girl I thought you were

it's about the girl
who promised me forever
she was an ANGEL
who wanted me to stay with her

this is about the love
about the love we had
but you walked away
you took away your share

this is about the dreams
the dreams that are shattered
unexpectedly all of them
turned into a nightmare

let me love YOU

I 'm иσт ßєggiиg yσu тσ lσvє мє.
I'м иσт яєคlly єvєи ครkiиg yσu .
ßuт, iรи'т iт คlяighт
if i chєяiรh тhคт hσþє iи мy hєคят?
if i dяєคм σf juรт hσldiиg yσuя hคиd,
iт will huят мє - иσт yσu.
i will тяy тσ kєєþ мy єyєร fяσм รhiиiиg
Whєи тhєy รєє yσu.
คиd i þяσмiรє
i ill тяy иσт тσ รмilє ค รþєciคl รмilє
Whєи yσu รคy Hєllσ.
ßuт, þlєครє Dσи'т ครk мє иσт тσ lσvє yσu... ...!!

I know it's not easy

I know it's not easy
but, we need to move on
find another way
and another place to go on

I don't want to hurt myself
by giving you more hurt
things will never be same again
I got to accept this truth

we need to try this
though it's too tough
there is no end to love
but I had it enough

it's not the end of my love
it's not like a separation
but, I doubt if it was LOVE
when you said it was a relation

there's no sense in wasting time
here we need to draw a line
all my feelings that I have
I'll lead them till the grave

All Rise

Yo, yo
Stargate
Yo, yo
Your honour please
Gotta believe what I say
(Say)
What I will tell
(Tell)
Happened just the other day
(Day)
I must confess
(Confess)
'Cause had about
Enough (Enough)
I need your help (help)
Got to make this
Here thing stop (Stop)

Baby I swear
I tell the truth
(Uhuh)
About all the things
You used to do
(Come on)
And if you thought
You had me fooled
I'm tellin' you now
Objection overruled
Here we go
(Oh baby)

One for the money
And the free rides
It's two for the lie
That you denied
All rise
(All rise)
All rise
(All rise, all rise)
Three for the calls
You've been making
It's four for the times
You've been faking
All rise
(I'm gonna tell
It to your face)
All rise
(I rest my case)

You're on the stand
(Stand)
With your back
Against the wall
(Wall)
Nowhere to run
(Run)
And nobody
You can call
(Call) Oh no
I just can't wait
(Wait)
Now the case is
Open wide (wide)
You'll try to pray
(Pray)
But the jury will decide
(Decide)

Baby I swear
I tell the truth
(Uhuh)
About all the things
You used to do
And if you thought
You had me fooled
(Come on)
I'm tellin' you now
Objection overruled
Oh baby

One for the money
And the free rides
It's two for the lie
That you denied
All rise
(All rise)
All rise
(All rise, all rise)
Three for the calls
You've been making
It's four for the times
You've been faking
All rise
(I'm gonna tell it
To your face)
All rise
(I rest my case)

So step back 'cause
You don't know this cat
I know deep down that
You don't want me to react
I lay low leaving
All my options open
The decision of the jury
Has not been spoken
Step in my house
You find that
Your stuff has gone
(Gone)
But in reality to whom
Does the stuff belong?
I bring you into court
To preach my order
And you know that
You overstep the border,
Uhuh

One for the money
And the free rides
It's two for the lie
That you denied
(Ooh)
All rise
(All rise)
All rise
(All rise, all rise)
Three for the calls
You've been making
(Yeah)
It's four for the times
You've been faking
All rise
(All rise, all rise)
All rise
(All rise, all rise)

One for the money and
The free rides
(What you say)
It's two for the lie
That you denied
(Can't you pay)
All rise
(What you've done)
All rise
Three for the calls
You've been making
(What you say)
It's four for the times
You've been faking
(Can't you pay)
All rise
(What you've done)
All rise
(Where you've gone)

One for the money
And the free rides
It's two for the lie
That you denied
(Oh)
All rise
(Oh)
All rise
(Uhuh uhuh)
Three for the calls
You've been making
It's four for the times
You've been faking
I said all rise
I'm gonna tell it
To your face
All rise, I rest my case
(Uhuh uhuh)

thats your bloody definition of LOVE

RELATIONSHIP
thats your bloody definition of LOVE

Relationship exists between a newly married couple as well, most of them never get to LOVE each other till the end.
They live with each other happily or unhappily.
LOVE is not about living with each other.
But, LOVE is not living without each other.
LOVE is not about winning someone, but losing yourself.

You make me feel that you don't love me anymore.
It's just an attachment.
You are just addicted to me.
You miss the way I used to treat you, make you feel special.

And, you still say you LOVE me.
Tell me one thing that you know, I don't like, and what you have done regarding it.
Tell me one time, when you did not do something, 'cause I did not like it.
But, always you did everything, willingly hurting me.

The fact is that you will not LOVE anyone ever, 'cause you only LOVE yourself.

You say you hate me.

What the FCUK !!!

Give me one reason that makes you hate me.

But, I have got so many reasons to hate myself ad obviously you too, all 'cause of you.

Such an emotional fool, NOT ME, it's you.

You are an emotional fool.

As I had already said, you tend to lose yourself, when someone gives you emotional support.

That is why you keep falling in LOVE with so many people at once.

Sometimes I think, I don't love you anymore, 'cause I only pity on you.

May GOD bless you, forgive for all your deeds, give some sanity in life and purity to your soul.

तू बेवफा है

मैं अगर होटो से ना कहु
तो ये मत समझना
के तू बेवफा नही है

सज़ा-ए-मोहब्बत तुझे अब मिलेगी
जब तुने हद से ज्यादा
मोहब्बत से ज्यादा जफ़ा की है

I'm an emotional fool

if I talk rudely

it hurts you

if I don't pay attention

it hurts you

if I avoid or ignore

it hurts you

if I flirt with other girls

it hurts you
even if I take name of other girl
it hurts you
if I don't show affection
it hurts you
if I don't trust
it hurts you
if I don't believe your words
it hurts you
if I don't give you time
it hurts you

but if you do the same
you want me to understand

if I get hurt,
I'm an emotional fool

a bloody selfish lover

I knew, what goes around comes back.
But I did not knew, that this will keep doing rounds around me.

SO !!!
You think, you have lost a friend in ME.
Great !!!
I'm delighted !!!
Mogambo khush huwa !!!

When you were out of town, I tried to hold on to you as much as possible, so you won't feel lonely.

When you were sick and dying, I tried to make it easy, behaving normal, pretending to be OK, and being there for you whenever you wanted. It was only physical distance that separated me from you.

Tell me a TIME, when I was not with you, when you needed a friend.
And also tell me a TIME, when you were there for me, when I needed a friend.

Look at the mirror before you say anything.
Don't point out fingers, three of them are pointing yourself.

Just like earlier, keep doing mistakes and I'll take the punishments for them !!!
Keep saying sorry and keep regretting.
This is so unfair.
Even after taking the punishment on myself, why do you need to suffer everytime.


Life is going to get worst, than what it was till now.
Thanks to you sweetheart !!!
I want to thank you whole heartedly for screwing up my life and making me understand what LOVE is not like.

I got nothing to prove, when my God knows how much I LOVE YOU.
May be, he loves me more than that, so he know how much I LOVE YOU, and thats the reason, he don't want us to be together.

I would have fought with him for you, but, now you don't want me.

I don't need to show, how much love I have.
I don't need to explain, what I feel.
I don't need to miss you, even though I really care.

'Cause, I'm a BLOODY SELFISH LOVER !!!

let it GO

hey sweetheart

try to understand baby

this is getting tougher and tougher every day

let it GO

it was all my fault

I blame myself every day, every moment for screwing your life

it was me, who first added you on orkut

it was me, who proposed you first

it was me, who was crazy and running away from you

it was me, who made you change your decisions

it was me, who could not understand your needs and change

and the list goes on ...

accept the reality

I know how hard it is to forget everything

may be it will take this whole of my lifetime

but, we are not alike

we are not meant to be with each other

you are an Angel, MAD little princess

I will love you till death, till my last breathe

but, I'm only a human

I don't deserve you

but, all your bitter words still drive me crazy all the times

you can't undo this hurt and pain that you gave

I tried as much as possible to get through this

it was you only, who taught me, how to stand by our words and commitments in a relationship

sadly, you forgot it all

I'm not blaming you, but you've to face it

you say, you did not do it purposely

but you lied

you hide the things

you broke my trust

it doesn't hurt to know that you broke my trust, but now I have no one left to trust

I'm afraid to believe in anything

I will miss you always

all those sweet memories

all your sweet kisses

warmth of your hug

softness of your hand

smell of your cheeks

drying out your hairs

head on my shoulder

eyes filled with tears

holding my hand for the fear of losing me

brushing events

and the blushing moments

messages on cellphone

silent talks by the sound of keypad tone
and the list goes on ...

I have got them all in my heart

we have to stop this

there is no sense in getting yourself hurt

I can't see you like this

someday you will forgive me and forget me

every thing happens for good

I have no regrets, no grudges

I will live happily, as much as possible

but, don't ask me to forget you and your love

I'll keep my promises, 'cause I need to stand by my words

I LOVE YOU MYAW

tearin' up my heart

it's tearin' up my heart

when I'm with you

and when we are apart

I feel it too

and no matter what I do

I feel the pain

with or without you

baby, I don't understand

just why we can't be lovers

things are getting out of hand

tryin' too much,

but baby we can win

let it go,

if you want me girl

let me know

I am down,

on my knees

I can't take it anymore

it's tearin' up my heart

when I'm with you

and when we are apart

I feel it too

and no matter what I do

I feel the pain

with or without you

baby, don't misunderstand,

what I'm trying to tell ya

in the corner of my mind

baby, it feels like

we're running out of time

let it go,

if you want me girl

let me know

I am down

on my knees,

I can't take it anymore

it's tearin' up my heart

when I'm with you,

but when we're apart

I feel it too

and no matter what I do

I'll feel the pain

with or without you

tearin' up my heart and soul

when we're apart I feel it too

and no matter what I do

I'll feel the pain

with or without you

Oh baby, I'm missing you

It's been more than two days, that I heard your sweet voice

Our last meet and last chat, I was mad without a reason

But, that's the way I have got myself living all these days without you

I go mad at everything, when you are not around

I'm out of my soul, living like a dead man, 5 feet 10 inch of flesh and bones and some blood

Got a brain, but I keep it busy with your thoughts, our memories and all the past

Heart ? What's that !!!

It's just a fistful piece that keeps blood pumping and circulating throughout the body

Soul, its only imaginary thing, a myth, doesn't exist

Seems like I'm losing my faith in everything

I hate the light

I love the night

'Cause I have to get through the day without you and your love

But, I can sleep and dream about you all the night, where we are one

Did you see me smiling all these days ?

I've been trying to call you all the time, all these days, all these nights

But, I stop myself, 'cause, may be you don't want me anymore, you don't need me anymore

You say that you love me

You say that you want me

You say that you need me

You say that you can't live without me

But I'm too much broken here inside

I think I have become a psychopath

I have become mad

I can't tolerate even a moment of separation from you

I drive myself crazy when you are not around, when you don't reply or avoid me or ignore me

I've got a guy inside me, who wants to cry and scream

But, I keep him locked inside

I don't want him to come out and see the reality

He is just too dumb to live without LOVE

memories - part1

I keep reminiscing about the days of us, you and me, very best of friends.

I miss those moments, we shared a beautiful life.

I miss those long late night talks on phone.

I hated to talk by sms, but you habituated me for it.

Lots n lots of sms, in a day.

Only the three words in each sms, but each of them was so special for me.

The sound of your voice, when you said, 'I love you'.

A mail, in your simple words, when you wrote that you love me.

I'm the only one and we will be together forever.

Nothing can change your mind, 'cause you love me and you know that I love you.

You would never think of anyone else, 'cause it would be a sin for you.

You deleted all the trails, all the mails, all the conversations, all chats and histories.

But you could not erase our memories, you could not erase our feelings, that stay inside your heart.

I still got the recorded conversations of us, when I listen to it, still reminds me of your feelings.

All your words, all your laughs, all the silent moments, your breathe, when you used to say, that I'm all yours, by heart, by mind, by soul, and you used to feel it, when you really meant it.

Still remember your face, when we used to separate, 'cause we had to go home.

But I could always figure it out, that you were never prepared for it.

The way you used to look at me, stare, when train would horn and start to leave.

Our eyes used to speak, and long for another moment to be with each other.

The phone used to ring, right after the moment, 'cause you never wanted to let go a moment without me by your side.

Where are those days gone ???

We are changed a lot !!!

Both of us !!!

I would do it all again !!!

But, I'm helpless, if you don't feel it same.

LOVE is a decease

LOVE is a decease (also known as loveria), once infected, you are as good as dead.
Doctors and scientists have not found a cure on it till date (and they never will).
However, there's common theory which accepts that the only medicine for this decease is more LOVE. But must be supplied as per the need.
Sometimes missing just one dosage, could lead the patient to go crazy, mad and wild at everyone.

LOVE is a drug

LOVE is a drug, once addicted, there is no coming back.
But beware, lack of LOVE or even excess of it, can lead to malfunctioning of the heart, making it unstable or unusable forever.

What is love ?

What is love ?

A most widely and commonly asked question all over the world or may be across the universe.

LOVE
a feeling that knows no boundaries
a feeling that can't be taught
a feeling that can't be expressed in words
a feeling that can destroy the life of beings in LOVE
a feeling that steals sleep and rest
a feeling that can make you smile and shed a tear both at the same time
a feeling that can cause sever pain and heartache, which may increase with every breathe and last forever
a feeling that can make rocks melt down
a feeling that can unearth the soul from its hiding place
a feeling that has potential to destroy the existence of mankind
a feeling with the nature of extreme tolerance
a feeling with the power of moving the mountains
a feeling so hazardous that without use of any weapon can kill thousands of people standing against its path
a feeling worshiped by God himself
a feeling above God, 'cause even God finds himself helpless against the souls who are in LOVE

it's nothing but a feeling
the only difference is ...
for someone, it's the feeling worth his life
and for someone it's nothing but just another feeling

a story

Lying in my arms, you asked me, "How much do you love me?"

I said,"I don't know, I can't tell you in words".
"How can I tell you how much love I have for you. But all I know is that I love you."

Then you asked,"Why do you LOVE me."
I said,"I can't tell you, why do I love you, but I will tell you a story."
Even though I had forgotten it, I collected my memory and gathered some words.

"There used to be girl and a boy. He really loved her so much. She always kept on asking him, why do you love me and he always said that he can't tell her why he loves her. One day she was really furious and said that h don't love her, cause he can't even tell her why he loves her. She said that her friends boyfriend can tell her friend why he loves and when she keeps sharing this with her, it hurts her. He was really concerned about her, and he knew this time he has no escape, so he said,'OK, I'll try to tell you.'
'I love the way you look at me.'
'I love the way smile.'
'I love the way you hold my hand.'
'I love the way you make me feel, when I'm with you.'

Sadly, the girl meets an accident few days later and goes into coma.
The guy recovering though all the pain and facing the reality, puts a letter beside her pillow.

It read like this,
Now that you can't see me the way you used to be, I don't love you.
Now that you don't smile, I don't love you.
Now that you can't hold my hand, I don't love you.
Now that you can't make me feel anything, I don't love you.

But, I still love you, 'cause that is the way LOVE is."

I love you still
I did, I do and I will

YOU ARE MY LIFE

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No !!!

Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really !!!

Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No !!!

Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No !!!

Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No !!!

Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No !!!

Girl: Choose - me or your life
Boy: my life !!!

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because YOU ARE MY LIFE.

is it that ... ???

is it that you LOVE me 'cause you need me

or

is it that you need me 'cause you LOVE me

is it that you LOVE me 'cause you can't live without me

or

is it that you can't live without me 'cause you LOVE me

You say, you know everything.

You say, you know that you hurt me.

You say, you know that you gave me pain.

But, what you don't realize is, that I'm still wounded.

I'm still hurt and this pain remains.

After all the said and done, I have many reaons to hate you.

I should hate you, for breaking my trust.

I should hate you for backstabbing my heart.

I should hate you for hurting my soul.

I should hate you for betraying me.

But every time I try, I end up hating myself.

I'm so out of my mind, that I don't feel anything.

Did you see me smile last night ?

I have gone really numb.

This is not about us, but about me.

I am tired of being myself.

I'm tired of living like this, with you or without you.

If I share my true feelings, ain't it shows that I love you.

Don't love me, 'cause I love you, love me for loving me.

'Cause, I hate to see the one I love is happy with somebody else, but I surely hate it more to see the one I love is unhappy with me…