sorry that I let you down

where did I go wrong
what was my mistake
didn't I love you with all my heart ?
didn't I love you with all that I had ?
wasn't my love from the depth of my soul ?

why did you punish me for the mistakes of others
I stood by your side
through the good
through the bad
through the worst
I was always there to catch your tears
and make you smile
I gave you the smile when you were down
I loved you from the moment when I realized your love for me
even though there was someone else in my life
now I know how much I loved you
I would have died for you even then
I would have destroyed this world for your tears
I would have done anything to see you smile

I still remember that night, when you needed me
sitting by the wall, and you were crying
nobody, but I realized you were not in the same room
Where is priya?'
and I came out to look for you
then the fucker followed
had he loved you then, he would have seen you before me
he would have noticed you for not being in the same room
I still remember it all like a picture on a wall inside my head
I came and sat in front of you
'Hey, Priya !!!'
'Why r u crying ?'
'What happened ?'
'What's wrong ?'
'Tell me ?'

'D, go inside !!!'
I looked up and ignored
'D, go inside !!!'
DAMNIT
sorry baby, I left, in anger, in frustration
it is the time, I will never forget in my life
I will never forgive myself for not being with you
but all I really wanted then was to sit besides you and wipe your tears
you were crying and you needed me
but the bastard came in between
trying to show and possess you
I was so out of my mind
you were my best friend
and you were crying
but he did not even gave me chance
to sit besides you and talk
to make you feel cared
to make you feel comfortable
to make you feel loved
I saw you through the darkness
there you were in front of my eyes
lying on the bed, so powerless
holding on thyself, but reaching for me from the inside
sorry that I let you down

so just tell me, I need a sane answer

we lived a life that was more beautiful than dreams itself
everyday we used to meet, chat, talk
miss each other so badly
never went a day when we were apart emotionally
you loved me with the love, that was more than the love
you were always so afraid to lose me
you always pulled me when I tried to leave and you never let me go
so just tell me, I need a sane answer
you said you want me, and we are together
you said this will never end, and its now forever
why did you do this, why did you leave me

what happened so suddenly
why did you leave
why you broke all our dreams
why you left our world shattered
wasn't it yours ever ?
you stood by my side
when it was tough, you made me fight
through the darkness, you showed me light
and later when I looked up the sun,
I know it was never so bright
so just tell me, I need a sane answer
you said you want me, and we are together
you said this will never end, and its now forever
why did you do this, why did you leave me

the moment when I loved you
I committed myself into you
I know this will sound crazy
but now I know the meaning of commitment
and I know the meaning of LOVE
every other second, I think of you
I try to find a way to be with you
so just tell me, I need a sane answer
you said you want me, and we are together
you said this will never end, and its now forever
why did you do this, why did you leave me

I gave you my everything
yeah, my everything
I gave you my heart,
I gave you my body,
I gave you my mind,
I gave you my soul,
I gave up my friends,
I gave up on my family,
I gave you my life,
I thought you will be my wife
so just tell me, I need a sane answer
you said you want me, and we are together
you said this will never end, and its now forever
why did you do this, why did you leave me

I'm still here, broken inside
tired of trying, trying to smile
never let a tear escape my eyes
but missed it few times
could not hold on always
whatever goes around
I long to hear your sound
everything is messed up without you
life is like living in hell, or may be worst
so just tell me, I need a sane answer
you said you want me, and we are together
you said this will never end, and its now forever
why did you do this, why did you leave me

I walk with my face down, through the crowd
'cause I keep searching you in my thoughts
I feel like walking forever, till I reach you
I get lost in a place, whenever I see it in our memories
hitting people, bumping into the cars
crashing into the walls, falling from the steps
this is not getting better, its getting badder
so just tell me, I need a sane answer
you said you want me, and we are together
you said this will never end, and its now forever
why did you do this, why did you leave me

DISCONNECTED

here goes the most awaited one
DISCONNECTED

Still waiting here for you,
where we used to meet,
searching into the cafes,
where we used to eat,
standing besides the places,
where we used to sit,

when I'm running to you,
don't say I'm too late,
I still cant exit the places,
where you used to wait


I can't see myself alone
it's hard to believe that you're gone
don't think I'm not affected,
I'm DISCONNECTED


I lived in the heaven,
now I'm crawling in this hell
I'm standing in the tracks,
where I'm waiting for the rail
going through this feeling,
that I just can not tell

wishing you were hear
just want you to be near
missing you so bad
you were everything I had

all your words have gone though me
now you say we're never meant to be
feel like I'm rejected
baby, I'm DISCONNECTED

remember the times ...

remember the times ...

when you stood on my feet
putting your hands behind my neck
my hands on your waist
and we walked like that for a while

when I hugged you in front of the mirror
standing behind you
we looked each other through reflection
and you said, "I LOVE YOU"

when I had lifted you in my arms
took you to the bed, and put
you were crying like a child
pulled me by my shirt n hugged me

when you slept on my shoulder
while holding to my hand
you were afraid to lose me
as if someone was gonna take me away

the first night by your side
we woke up at 4, and talked for an hour
your head resting against my heart
and you were lying in my arms

when you were sleeping by my side
calling my name in sleep
searching for my hand
and when you couldn't find, you held the pillow

I remember all your dreams
when you woke up and you screamed
when you fell into my arms
and got yourself harmed

nails into my heart

you said, we'll never be apart
then you hit the nails into my heart
you left and fucked my brain
gifted this inevitable pain

I'm walking on the line
I've been victim of your crime
and If you think that I'm fine
I keep falling all the time

I'm standing on the cutting edge
I'm lost inside the damn rage
my sorrows are a never ending phase
'cause I was fooled by your pledge

save me

save me God, I'm pleading
heal my heart, it's bleeding
I'm on my knees
oh ! help me please
I'm broken up
I had enough
I'm standing at the door
blood spilled on the floor
God, show me the way
I'm just wasting another day
I'm searching for bliss
now I need some peace

and I need to move on

Those days are gone
and I need to move on
but I'm gettin stuck
something is pulling me down

not a day went without our conversation
but now that all seems like a big illusion
I'll keep the pain and I'll hold my tears
you live your life and I'll live mine in fear

all the times when we were together
you promised , you n I are forever
all the times when I looked in your eyes
couldn't read those hidden lies

but now I'm all alone
and I need to move on
but I'm gettin stuck
something is pulling me down

I'm nailed by your words
and I'm dying in my bed
I'm crowned with thorns
pinned deep into my head

I close my eyes and I hold my breathe
but all I see is your sweet smiling face
come back in my life, erase this pain
take me once again in your embrace

but, look, its the dawn
and I need to move on
but I'm gettin stuck
something is pulling me down

when I'm going to the hell

I'll make the way for blood
and I dare, it'll be a flood

I'm sick and I'm broke
my life's become a joke

I'll keep searchin for my girl
forever in this world

now words make no sense
I'm living your absence

now I won't even tell
when I'm going to the hell

No, I don't need to pretend
I'll be with you till the end

You will always have my hand
I'll always take your stand

If you're wrong, I'll make it right
If you're lost, I'll be your guide

If you're tired, then I'll fight
If you want, I'll hold you tight

you only came
now you got the blame
you played the game
and you are leaving

you only cried
but always you lied
and my hands are tied
when I'm drowning

you only thought
that I'm all you got
now you say I'm not
are you lying?

you think you are cool
but you are a fool
you speak but no act
only overreact

when it was raining
you pulled me under the umbrella
and you only said
I'm your Cinderella

no sun in my skies
a house built on lies
drowned in your cries
why did you do this?

and If you think its over
I'm not gonna take
If you think I'm alright
but every second I break

zindagi mein log toh milenge bahut

zindagi mein log toh milenge bahut
tera aks ban jaye woh hum honge

saath rone wale toh milenge hazaaro
tera daaman bhigane wale bhi bahut hai
teri aansuon ki kimat jaanate hai hum
tere ashk rokane wale hum honge

marr mitane wale toh mil jayenge bahut
tere liye jee jaye woh hum honge

tere honton ko hasi dene wale mil jayenge
dard ke bazaar mein bechake khud ko,
teri khushiya kharid laye woh hum honge

akela kabhi na samjhana khud ko
mar ke bhi jo laut aaye woh hum honge

love is all that remains

I stumble, I fall
I fumble, I stall
with every broken dream
ain't tryin to scream

sometimes I regret
try to forget
and no matter what I do,
can't get you outta ma head

walkin through the crowd
I try to find my way
but no matter how far I go
Its gonna be you at the end of the day

love will be same
love will be sane
after losing it all
love is all that remains

fucKING

got my pen
and got my six string
writing a song,
I may not gonna sing

you dazed my world,
fuck you bastard king
hide your ass,
I'm gonna start killing

fuck da KING
n fuck his armor
you ain't gonna win
cuz you facin a fighter

you got no place to hide
here goes your last fuckin ride
ran through games of your dirty mind
fuck in ur eyes, gonna make u blind

its time to end this story
with your dumb tale of glory
I'm gonna bury you deep,
into the myths of history

KING is a slave
can't even stand like a brave man
with fuckin shit pieces
his life is an empty can

funny, how it is !!!

funny, how it is !!!
sometimes I cut myself, and it doesn't even hurt
it sure bleeds, it sure feels pained
sometimes I enjoy, cut deeper
sometimes I try, to cry, but tears won't come out

I feel like you are flowing in my veins,
trying to set you free,
I make way for the blood,
and funny how it is, a tear escapes
sliding on my face,
rolling down my cheek
before it ends on my lips

LOVE is this !!!

Bet me you won't cry when you see this !!!

it's not love, it never was

if you can sleep in the night
if you feel everything is alright
it's not love, it never was

if you don't cry and if you still lie
if you've got a life and if you can fly
it's not love, it never was

if you don't care and no tear on your cheeks
you don't even call up, when day goes like a week
it's not love, it never was

if you don't miss our first kiss
if you don't remember your last said wish
it's not love, it never was

if you've got smile sporting on your face
no ways lead you to any lonely place
it's not love, it never was

love is insane like a storming hurricane
gotta keep loving, so I'll take that BLAME
gotta win your love, I must play this GAME
I dare the world, I dare the KING, gotta fuck both of them

LOVE STORY

teri yaadein, mulaqatein,
woh raatein, aur baatein
teri saansein, woh baahein
ab mujh ko yaad aayein
tere bina, mera jiya sataey,
aye kyon piya, yaadon nay teri
mujh pe yeh jadu kiya

teri saansein, woh baahein
ab mujh ko yaad aayein
woh adaaon ki ghataein,
mere dil ko chhu jaayein

pyari yeh duniya saari, maine hai tujh pe waari
phir bhi mere dil ne tujh se yaari ki baazi haari

mere khayaalon mein, mere khayaalon mein, bas tum
wapas aa jao, mere pass tum sadaa
wapas aa jao, mere pass tum sadaa

suna mera jahaan, bhula mein hu kahaan
jab tak hai jaan mein jaan, tera rahun priya

wapas aa jao, mere pass tum sadaa
wapas aa jao, mere pass tum sadaa

priya mera jiya, priya mera jiya, tu hai jahaan

tera karu intezaar, tu mere dil ka qaraar
itna hai aetbaar, maanungaa na mein bhi haar

sadaa khushiyon ka ehsaas tha
gum ki parwah nahi thi
mohabbat ke looteron ne loot liya raste mein
manzilon ko jaane wali dagar tak miit gayi

bade pyar se sapna dekha tha ek aashiyane ka
lekin mere chaman se har ek phool le gaye woh
na jaane meri khushiyon ko kiski nazar lag gayi
mohabbat ke gulistan mein kaise aag lag gayi

mere hoton ki hasi pe marte the woh
mere labo pe sachchai se darte the woh
mere aankhon mein aasuon ki lehar lag gayi
meri masoom hasi ki kisko khabar lag gayi

BEFORE I WRITE THE ENDING LINE

FUCK LOVE, FUCK LIFE
WELCOME SORROWS, WELCOME PAIN

I'VE HAD ENOUGH
RAN THROUGH YOUR SECRETS AND LIES
BROKEN TRUST AND SHADOWS OF LUST
MY HEAD IS GONNA BURST
AGAIN I WILL CUT
SO YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO HURT

BURN IT ON MY HAND
SO I'LL BE ABLE TO STAND
START PUNCHING THE WALLS
I AM GONNA TAKE THIS FALL
EVERY NIGHT A CLOUD WILL RAIN
AND TRY TO ERASE MY PAIN

MY LIFE IS IN DANGER
I WANT TO SURVIVE THIS ANGER
WANNA HOLD YOU ONE MORE TIME
BEFORE I WRITE THE ENDING LINE

STANDING IN THE CORNER
EMPTYING ANOTHER PACKET

'Cause I can't live without you

I have got only two choices.
TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU or TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU

and I choose YOU.
'Cause I can't live without you.

I don't know,
in what words to tell you,
in which way I should make you understand,
how should I let you know,
and what can I do to make you mine.

Tell me, how can I say it in other words, I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU !!!

I keep looking for you, when I'm online.
I keep waiting for your call.
I walk by the places where once we used be.

No one will come and make things right,
You and I, only we had to try and we will fight.

its not possible, it never will be
life without you, I never even imagined
and now when I am living in it,
only I know what its like.

You promised me, you'll share all your sorrows,
but you are hiding, and going through it all alone.
It hurts babe, hurts like hell to me
like it did, like it does to you.

DON'T DO THIS ... PLEASE DON'T DO THIS !!!

एक प्रेम कथा

ती जन्मताच आंधळी, त्यामुळे सगळ्यांच्याच तिरस्कारास पात्र.
आई-वडील, सख्खे भाऊ, बहिणींही एक डोक्यावरचंन टाळता येणार ओझं म्हणून सहन करणारे.
ह्यात एकच समाधानाची बाब म्हणजे तिचा प्रियकर.
तिच्यावर जिवापाड प्रेम करणारा, तिच्या अंधपणाचा कोणताही बाऊ न करता.
मग तिला वाटायचे आपण खुप नशिबवान आहोत.
तिने कित्येक वेळेस त्याला म्हंटले सुद्धा, "जर मला दृष्टी लाभली असती तर तुझ्याशीच लग्न करून, शेवट पर्यंत साथ दिली असती."
आणी अचानक एके दिवशी चमत्कार झाला.
कोणीतरी तिला आपले डोळे देण्यास तयार झाला.
शेवटी यशस्वी शस्त्रक्रिये नंतर दिला दिसू लागले.
सर्व प्रथम तिने प्रियकराला पाहण्याचा हट्ट धरला.
त्याला पाहताच तिला जबरदस्त धक्का बसला.
तो चक्क आंधळा होता.
तेवढ्यात त्याने विचारले, "करशील आता माझ्याशी लग्न?"
तिने सहजतेने त्याचा प्रस्ताव नाकारला.
त्याने कांहीही प्रतिक्रीया व्यक्त केली नाही.
तिच्यापासुन दुर जाताना फक्त एवढेच म्हणाला, "माझ्या डोळ्यांची काळजी घे."

ती उघड्या डोळ्यांनी पहातच राहिली.

ITS YOU

ONCE IN A LIFETIME YOU FIND A FRIEND
WHO TOUCHES NOT ONLY YOUR HEART
BUT ALSO YOUR SOUL

ONCE IN A LIFETIME
YOU DISCOVER SOMEONE
WHO STANDS BESIDE YOU
NOT OVER YOU

ONCE IN A LIFETIME
IF YOU ARE LUCKY
YOU FIND SOMEONE
AS I HAVE FOUND YOU

VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE
WE CAN BE OURSELVES WITH
TALK WITH, LAUGH WITH
HOPE WITH AND BELIEVE WITH ..

.. I HAVE FOUND THAT SOMEONE
AND ITS YOU !!!

MAD aka MY ADORABLE DARLING

MYAW

SHONA

Aisa Nahi Ke Hum Ko Mohabbat Nahi Mili

Aisa Nahi Ke Hum Ko Mohabbat Nahi Mili,
Jaise Chaahte Thay Hum Ko Woh Ulfat Nahi Mili,

Milne Ko Zindgi Main Kayi Humsafer Miley,
Par Un Ki Tabiyat Se Tabiyat Nahi Mili,

Chehron Mein Duusron Ke Tumhe Dhoondhte Rahe,
Surat Nahi Milli Kahin Seerat Nahi Mili,

Bohut Deir Se Aaya To Mere Pass Kya Kahoon,
Alfaaz Dhoondne Ki Bhi Mouhlat Nahi Mili,

Tujh Ko Gila Raha Ke Tawajoh Na Di Tujhe,
Lekin Humein Khud Apni Mohabbat Nahi mili,

Her Shakhas Zindgi Mein Bohut Deir Se Mila,
Koi Bhi Cheez Waqat-e-Zaroorat Nahi Mili,

Hum Ko To Teri Aadatein Achhi Lagin,

Afsoos Ke Tujh Se Meri Aadat Nahi Milli

LOVE is

chand si mehbooba ho meri, kab aisa maine socha tha
ha tum bilkul waisi ho, jaisa maine socha tha

LOVE is not about finding the Mister or Miss Perfect.
LOVE is not about building the perfect relationship.

LOVE is about seeing through the imperfections and accepting the flaws of your life partner.
No one is perfect in this world and nothing is ideal.
We need to accept the things as they are. OR
We should try and change them as per our convenience. OR
We must adjust and try not to be bothered.

Things will not be always as you want them to be.
World will not follow you, never it did, never it will.
Either you maintain the rhythm and walk with world or move ahead of everyone.
Make our own way, don't care if others are with us or behind us or no one's following.
'Cause in the end, it's not your destination that matters, but your JOURNEY.

STAY WITH ME AND I'LL SHOW YOU THE WAY
YOU CAN CLOSE YOUR EYES AND TRUST ME
WE SHALL START THE JOURNEY, AND BRIGHTEN OUR OWN DAY