WELCOME BACK

there you walked away
here you came back
this is what I wanted you to be ..
to be yourself ..
to be a little selfish and think about yourself
not to get carried away by force or drown yourself in tears and emotional blackmailing

this is whom I adore
my best (girl) friend
WELCOME BACK
and promise me you'll always stay by my side as you are

I won't go away from you

I sweared with my hand on your head,
'I won't go away from you'

How am I supposed to do it now?
I won't be trying that anyhow

i don't love you like I did yesterday

i don't love you like I did yesterday
this feeling keeps growing everyday

love you even more, when you are so far away
and if I don't hear you, I know I'm not through the day

I shouldn't be begging, that I want you to stay
but if I don't see you, I know I'm not through the day

I'm driving my life in the wrong lane, I've lost the way
Give me some time, for all the words that I need to say
Everything will be right, I just need to pray
I can't sit n wait, when life is fading to gray

always and forever,
without you,
it's just another day

lost in your thought again

sitting in the compartment of train
lost in your thought again
couldn't hide, couldn't control the pain
hiding my face, is what I was doing then

mohabbat ke aage hara hai saara zamaana
mujh jaisa kaha milega tujhe koi aur deewana

dard diya tujhe, jab pyaar tha nibhana
apne hi haathon se, barbaad kar diya apna aashiyana

just another fall

sitting all alone
staring at the phone
waiting for your call
so I could take just another fall

its hard to tell myself, that you are gone,
and i still can't believe, what I've done

'cause I know you still love me

I'm gonna set you free,
'cause I know you still love me

Remember all the words that u said ?
so, I'm gonna wait !!!

every time when I was dying

every time when I was dying
you were with someone else enjoying

tell that other guy to stop the show off
why he just don't die or fuck off

I want him to stop pretending
ask him to stop assuming
he must pay everyday, cause I'm not fine
and he is living in the world that is mine

now I know, you are right,
but it's you, so I can't fight
I must pay for all my deeds
and it's you who will end my needs

i will always love you till the death

the emptiness is killing me slowly as i wipe the tears that fall from my eyes, i realize you're really gone.my heart breaks as it crumbles to the floor, i drop to my knees unaware of what to do.

i close my eyes and picture you, i see your face, your smile.i feel your arms around me holding me tightly, so tightly i can't breath, i gasp for air. all alone, scared ....
thats how i feel without you near!!!

i know that time can never change the love i have for you... except to make it deeper still with everything we do.

in all my dreams of coming years, you play yhe greatest part, for i know that time will never change the love within my heart..

never thought that ill miss you this much... never thought you'll be gone forever... you left so many things behind and they'll never be completed without you, but i will always love you till the death

I LOVE YOU !!!

I LOVE YOU !!!
When you are sweating really hard, when you are crying in my arms, and wanting me to hold you and wipe your tears.
When you are standing besides me, holding my hands, playing with my clothes.
I LOVE to see YOU, first in the morning, hairs messed up rolling on your cheeks.
I LOVE YOU, when you are sitting lonely, in deep thinking, with downside curves on your face.
I LOVE YOU, when you are angry with me and shouting on me, cause then I know, YOU LOVE ME TOO !!!

jaa main tujhe dil se aazad karta hoon,
apne hathon se apni kaaynat barbaad karta hoon
rakh liya hai teri yaadon ko zindagi bhar ke liye,
aaj bhi main sirf tujhko yaad karta hoon

ho sake toh kabhi mood ke dekh lena,
haal kya kar diya hai tune deewane ka,
aaj bhi duniya ko jalaa sakta hoon,
bas ek intezaar hai tere aane ka ...

you've drained out all the colors from my life,
to paint a picture and be someone else's wife

break free

Every time I tried to move away you pulled me close
When I wanted to leave, you grabbed me and made me believe in YOUR LOVE
You dragged me and drowned me in YOUR LOVE.

How many times you are going to punish me for my mistake, I did not sin.
How many times should I say sorry ?
You can only see that he can't live without you,
Just because, I never showed you, how much I LOVE YOU, doesn't mean that I'm not affected, I am DISCONNECTED.
You said its all over, and I am not going to live anymore.

Tonight I'm going to love you the way YOU loved me,
I'm not going to do anything, but only the things that YOU did.
I'm only going to show you, how much YOU loved me
You taught me to love, you showed me the madness and passion
I'm only going to LOVE YOU, the way YOU did, or YOU DO.

I want to see, I need to see, if it hurts ME.
You make me feel, I'm a ROCK, SENSELESS, EMOTIONAL FOOL.
It doesn't hurt me, only he gets hurt all the time.
So I need to test.

Tonight, I'm going to break free, and only MY ANGEL can save me.
I don't need your sympathy, keep it for him.
I'm going to act selfish, like you did for me.
I still remember your words, you said YOU love me.


People say, love never dies.
If its true, it'll always stay within YOU, or its going to die with ME.


I LOVE YOU STILL,
I DID, I DO and I WILL

i still remember

last night, i felt the meaning of the words
what it means to be 'COLD and LONELY'

lying on my bed, lyk half dead
staring at your picture, on my desk
u wer smilin in there, n i was smiling too
u said u love me, n i said love you too

ther was a tym, wen u cudn't sleep without hearin my voice
all the little things that u did, now take me by surprise

i still remember,
the way u used to make me feel, u have filled up my senses
feeling of lying in your arms,
those second long stolen kisses, n a smile on ur face after that
those cute expressions n innocence in ur eyes, now tears me apart
all the words you had said, still echoes in my heart
the way u used to look at me,
cover ur face with your hands, wen i used to stare at you
u used to hold my hand, wenever u can
the way u used to cry, n hurt urself for me, beggin for me to stay n not leave
callin my name, wen i turned off the light
sayin 'I LOVE YOU', all the time
ur hands thru my hairs, way u used to eat my ears
the way u used to sleep besides me without any fear
u look so beautiful, wen all messed up at the time u wake up
the way u used to comb ur hairs, the smell of ur sweat
reaching out for my hand, wen u wer afraid of losin me
a cry in my arms, it still makes me feel warm


remember ?
ur head on my shoulder, u wer readin newspaper
i rested my head on ur head then, n fell asleep,
u dint even wake up me, wen u wer uncomfortable that way
wen i used to say, I'm not hungry, u fed me with ur hands
n i'm still hungry, just coz i want to eat like that one more time

a hug in the running train, kisses on my cheek,
n u asked me also to return it,
those curves on ur face wen i returned it
u didn't care if anyone's watching us

in that burnin heat, ur hug felt so cooler
i wanted it to be forever

i try to forget, but it all keeps coming back to my head

i wonder if u still love me, n everyone keeps me telllin she's gone
i refuse to beliv, i refuse to see
coz u said, u wont be livin, if its you without ME

every moment, i care, i swear, i want to know, r u OK
i want u to knw, I LOVE YOU, i want u to show how much,
n i still cant forget ur touch
i refuse to move on, i dont want to see, what life is goin to be

baby, come back n hold me one more time,
shower me with your love,i knw u have locked it inside
i was livin in a perfect world,
now i just cry in dark, i hate to be in light
coz then everyone notices, i'm not alright

it does hurt, it hurts to much
I just want to feel your touch
dont keep me cryin
dont leave me dyin
u wer right, i am weak,
just come back n hold me like u used to be
i'm breaking every second into million pieces
n these shattered heart keeps longin for your LOVE

i dont feel like living
i swear, i'm goin to die, any moment

i cant take this reality,
all I see is, YOU without me

EMoTIoNs of a FoOL

if you r readin this, it means u need to know wats wrong wid me ..
so read on n plz be quite, dnt irritate by askin abt it

aaj se main har ek kaam karta hoon,
saari baate tere banaam karta hoon ...
din aur raate, tere naam karta hoon,
haal-e-dil lafjo mein bayaan karta hoon ...
ab jo bhi ho barbaad-e-zindagi,
tere ishq ko aakhari salaam karta hoon ...
mohabbat mein zindagi tere naam karta hoon,
kissa hi khatam ho jayega ab, khud ka kaam tamaam karta hoon

(NOTE: above lines r nt stolen one, direct frm my heart)

it never took me 2 hours to get prepared for office, but today !!!
came to the office, had not a penny in my pocket,
my stomach was achin, but its OK, coz that was required to keep me burnin !!!

i don't need a drug or drink to say whats in my heart ...

i wish i didn't sleep that day, i wish i made a way for words yesterday
you said 'I LOVE YOU', you said 'I AM IN YOUR HEART'
then just another day, it all fell apart
i was wondering why, everything makes me cry
never meant to screw up ur feelings, just wanted to make one last try ...



I'm only human, bound to make mistakes
i know what i put u into, coz the same thing now I'm going through
y dint u pull me, lyk u did on friday,
but wen i was doin a mistake, u wer alreay havin an optional stray

u didn't even look at my hand yesterday,
coz u wer busy with ur guy on phone, explainin him the things n makin him trust you ...
wtf ...
gud kinda commitment ...
wen he don't even trust you, i don't need to show how much he loves you ...
who the fuck is he, to control u, wen he don't even care what u r going through

i dont need to tell you, but relationships can't survive without mutual understandin n trust
u can't build a bridge on cracked pillars

did i ever ask u abt ur relationship wid him, but he knws every fuckin small thing abt us
did i ever stopped u gettin close to him, even though it was killin me, i was surrenderin

it was so hard to leave, i was pullin my socks, tryin to tie my shoe lace
but what i really wanted was some more tym wid u at that place

now u dnt even care for me,
coz now he is d one for u, lyk i used to be
u call him, msg him, console him, make him feel gud
n i wait on my desk starin at my cell phone, reachin out every tym it rings, hopin its u



i have understood the reality, that u r not gonna come back
but i can't tell my heart, coz then it will stop ...

i pray again and again,
my heart shudn't take over my brain
coz if that happens
its goin to kill me to end dis pain


i still wonder, why can't u see
its abt you, its abt me

even d dumbass in my office, whom i used o dog fight,
can see that i'm not alright
what makes you to turn ur face away,
and i'm only gonna die sooner this way

he is not the one, he never was
but still u r goin to compromise

its not LOVE, its need
n u r goin to sacrifice for wat u did
he is not at fault, but he can make this halt

u used to say abt the guy u want
n he is never going to fit ur thoughts

even though he's not the one, he is goin to get heaven
u r goin to fill his empty world with ur LOVE ..
when mine is gettin destroyed
its not his love, just a need to fill his loneliness
an empty bucket is gettin filled at the cost of an ocean
u r goin to build a garden, but u r cuttin the forest

watever u ask me, no matter, how many times,
i've got only one answer
i dont know

but all i really know is
'I LOVE YOU STILL,
I DID, I DO AND I WILL'

this distance can never separate u n me

this distance can never separate u n me,
i'm standing right here where we used to meet

i can still feel ur hug n closed embrace,
i wish i cud die right now at this sacred place

everyday

everyday when I'm out of bed,
i see, I've to live one more day

its nothing that i regret,
but its everything that i must take

nothing can come n take ur place,
now u r gone n i must confess

I'm gonna luv u till d end,
even though my heart will never mend

wherever I go, whatever I do

wherever I go your memories follow,
whatever I do, your absence just keeps me hollow

I'm living in the life full of unhappiness,
i wish everyday, if u cud come back n fill dis emptiness.

if there ain't gonna be a tomorrow,
i want 2 hold u one more tym n end this sorrow

a cut to my heart within

i wish 2 go back in time and erase my past
bt all i know is, that this feeling will always last

i wud never let u know,
how hard it was to make u go,

i handed u over to him,
but wat i really did was a cut to my heart within

losing you is not more than your happiness

losing you is not more than your happiness
even though life without you looks like a mess,
I would clear it all, if i could just see your smiling face

now I know what it feels 2 be torn apart,
but can't help it, got this love 4 you in my heart

life has taken a turn, and i encounter a dead end

life has taken a turn, and i encounter a dead end
lying on the floor, minute goes like an hour,

I'm waiting for your come back,
wishing by any chance, if my life will get on track

i still wish if this is not the end,
but there's no way my heart could mend

you want me to sit back, n not stare at you,
but even if i close these eyes, what i see is only you

i never believed in destiny, but now i believe in everything that keeps us apart

when i was leaving, u still wanted me to stay
and now i cant see u losing 2 someone else this way,

u said I'm gonna be d only one
yeah, I'm gonna be the lonely one

living in the past

i'm living in the past, when WE were more than lovers,
sleeping besides the angel, her arms were my covers

prii-da-sweetheart

Chapter 1
priya ... or prii or priyu ... or ****** ...
so many names, but one girl .... who stands it all ...
a very confident girl, alwayz looking to make dreams come reality and working hard for it ...
talkative ... very supporting, caring , trustworthy, fun loving girl ...
she is one of the very spcl ppl whom I have met thru internet ...
she is very reserved in the start, but when she treats u as a frnd ...
u'll find it hard to stop her from talking ...

she is the one who, "if in a relationship, will do whatever she can to maintain it till the last moment ..."
like most of the girls, has spcl ability to tolerate, b strong and sacrifice in hardest times of life ...

hey prii dats all for now ...
take care ... byee ...
and alwayz b with me as my frnd ...




Chapter 2
here is another one..
priya.. one smart girl..
she is smarter dan u'll ever knw.. my sabse best girl frnd (i mean a best frnd in girls :D )..
very confident in watever she does.. n she's achieved a lot in such a small age..
hats off for this.. i respect her a lot as a woman
a very emotional girl who alwayz has control over her emotions
very strng personality.. matured, understndin, sophisticated grl
in short.. a modern day marriage material..
ther's a kid inside of every1 of us.. she ain't any exception.. dnt ever let this child grow up..
fun (republic) loving,
enjoys every moment as it comes her way..
she is a real gem i have found on orkut..
n i wanna keep it forever..

n btw for all u assholes.. stop sendin her frnd requests.. she has an attitude problem,
n even though she is in search of her lyf partner.. i knw dat u r nt d one..

i luv 2 see u smilin.. alwayz keep smiling.. lyk this :-) .. lyk this will also do :D ..
dnt ever leave me alone.. luv ya alwayz ... as a frnd :-)




Chapter 3
here's 3rd one 4 d sweetheart

fun is d other name of Priya .. or shud i call ****** :D
she is an absolute funmaker .. alwayz wish 2 steal happy moments 4m lyf and enjoy as much as possible
she is a diamond frnd, will do watever it takes 4 her frnds
btw her real name is ****** ******* .. aint dat much bad .. but we all luv to call her priya
i can confirm that she is an ultimate dancer, even though i never danced wid her or saw her dancin
she is quite rude n arrogant sumtyms, bt it's natural wen u have beauty n brain too
she wont listen 2 anyone or take advice, does wat she thinks is right
she will never accept things against her will, no matter how far u go
she feels dat she is alwayz rite, n yes, its true .. coz to err is human, angels wont make mistakes :-)
u will never knw dat how fast tym wil fly by, when u r around her
she is MAD :D
she is one of those very rare ones in my life, who have made a difference
i knw her 4m not very long, bt still it feels lyk if i knw her from ages




Chapter 4
now when i luk back into tym .. wen we first met
i see d different priya
d one i met was very much selfless
bt nw dis selfish world has grabbed her nerves n made her lyk themselves a bit

she is d desire of every heart that knws her .. n luv of every person around her
she is a BITCH :D
Beautiful. Intelligent. Talented. Charming. Honey.
she is a gutsy daring girl n dnt care abt d crowd around her
she is d one woman show 4 everything that she can do and 4 everything that she wants 2 do
you'll probably be helpless 2 help her, coz she'll do everything b4 you get 2 start
an extremely talented n ambitious interior designer, who is alwayz admired n luked upon by her calligues n bosses
professionally she has achieved d heights, wat gurls of her age won't even think of
watever she does, she gives her 100%, or else she wont take it in hand
a very responsible daughter n luvin sis in her family

its not too much .. its too less 2 write abt dis sweetheart ..
alwayz stay by my side .. luv ya MAD :-)



Chapter 5
priya ..

4 me its another name of love
she is a luvable, adorable angel, whose presence really matters in my lyf
jus perfect in watevr she does

nevr thought, nevr knew wat she is 2 me until nw, wen m abt 2 lose her

she's too gud 4 evry1 on dis earth, no matter hw far u try 2 ctrl, u cnt stop urself 4m fallin in luv wid her, she is lyk dat only

wen u r in need, she'll already be makin efforts 2 pull u out of ur troubles, even b4 u ask 4 help

she is always a source of inspiration who lifted me up, made me c things clearly wen i was behavin lyk a blind man
i trust her blindly, cuz she has earned my trust by always being ther wid me in my saddest n happiest moments, makin them unforgettable 4 me,
I'm nt gonna forget even a single moment spent wid u, I cherish them all
she came into my lyf, n made me c hw beautiful lyf is, so wid all my sorrows n troubles I can enjoy n liv to the fullest

i luv it wen u say, 'aink', 'get lost', 'bindass', 'aik na', 'aaaarrrrrrrreeyyy', 'ghari jaa'
wish if I cud hear it all just one more tym



Chapter 6
priya ...
very enthusiastic, business minded, ambitious, high flier, totally professional girl (or rather I say woman aged 20 years)
she is a girl with big dreams, n thinks that she is not born to live in india
she is the one with lots of love filled inside her
for me, she is an ANGEL from the heaven above
my sweetheart, MAD SHONA

if knowingly or unknowingly, had she ever hurt you, she will do whatever it takes, to make you feel good, n make the relationship right, even if it is at the cost of her self respect and happiness
being woman, naturally blessed with all the qualities of womanhood like temper and patience ..
but sometimes does act impatient and behaves short tempered
she will do whatever she can to rectify her mistakes

I'm really lucky to have you by my side ...
I feel like, I rule the world, whenever u r besides me

friday night

friday night, and i still can't fight ...

i was lying in your arms, then you held me so tight ...

you said again, that I'm the one ...
but now you're gone, I'm all alone