I've become so numb

I've become so numb
I keep lifting my feet to walk
I call people to help me out with something

I try to eat, but I take food and force myself to fill my stomach
I use my hands to dial some number,
but all I dial is yours

I feel insecure
I feel I'm falling every moment
I feel uncomfortable inside my own skin
I keep searching you in memories

Every place I walk by reminds me of you
Even the road to my home has talks of ME and YOU
I never imagined the life without you
I'm drowning every moment, in the pain of losing you

I promise to make it alright
every life I will stay by your side
It's like walking in the middle tornado
Your absence has taken the place of my shadow

I don't wanna live without you
I just can't think life without you
I'll never give you a chance to scold me
I love you shona, come back and hold me

baby, come back

in what words should I tell you
baby, come back
will it make a sense
with a letter in my blood

life is like living in a nightmare
every dream is about us
every thought of our past
my every breathe is longing for you

how did u forget everything
all your crazy dreams
when you woke up searching for me
all the times you were afraid of losing me

nobody knows what it was
they haven't seen you crying for me
they haven't heard you calling my name
when you reached for my hand in sleep

our arms tell the story of our love
cuts on your and mine have burns
there was a time, when you could live without food
but never a day passed by without my love

baby, come back
I am made for loving you
baby, come back
I'm lost and I don't know what to do

I find myself hung, when I look up the ceiling

I think this is my last day, my last night
my last hour, before I turn off the light

I've gone too far, can't come back
there is no return, life is on wrong track

I fear the survival, I ain't got any reason
life without you, is like living in a prison

I tear up my scars, stop my wounds from healing
could I die this moment, and help myself in killing

I try, but I can't get off this feeling
I find myself hung, when I look up the ceiling

I have a dream

I open my eyes.
I see you.
It's morning.
It's sunday morning.
I get up from the bed.
Walk near the window.
Slide the curtains aside.
Its raining outside.
I look at the sun.
I look back and stare at you for a moment.
You are smiling in sleep, must be dancing with me in your dream.
I walk towards the bed.
Bend down, put your hairs form your face, behind your ears.
I kiss on your forehead.
I get up and walk in the kitchen.
I can still see you from inside the kitchen.
I put on the gas to prepare tea.
Tea is ready.
Get the tray with two cups filled with tea to bed.
Keep the tray on table besides the bed.
Gently push you to wake up.
You hold my hand and cuddle it.
I say,'Honey! It's morning!'
You lightly open your eyes seeing me in sight.
You stretch your arms and ask for a hug.
I take your hands and pull you up.
Hold you in my arms and make you sit.
I take the tray.
I take the cup and offer it to you.
Another, I take for myself.
You see outside.
You shiver, cause it's raining outside.
You smile.
You make stupid face.
You start some stupid conversation.
We sip the tea and end it up.

mohabbat tune bhi ki, lekin nibhana na aaye tujhe
khwab dikhaye, lekin palko pe sajanaa na aaye tujhe

dil ke tukde bikhar ke sharmsaar hai
teri har hasi meri mohabbat ki karzdaar hai

If I let you go ...

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ... I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Night after night
I hear myself sayin´
Why can´t this feeling just fade away?
There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It´s such a shame we´re worlds apart ...
I´m too shuy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

Once again I´m thinking about ....
Taking the easy way out ....

They don't know

They say you're gone
They say you don't care
They say you played
and now you ain't gonna come back

They don't know you, but I know you
'Cause I have been through you
We have been through good, bad and worst
They have not seen you, like I did
They don't understand you, like I do

And I love you still
but I don't know what to do
to make you come back
I have got all planned
and I'll make it happen
I just want you to come back

I am a friend

Remember this ???

That's when I came into your life !!!
Stood by your side, as a friend, as a guardian.
How you wish to forget all those days.
Those were the best days of our life !!!

You showed me the way to happiness, and we both walked over. A friendship so pure, everyone envied.

I miss the time, when we were best friends.
Even then, I would have died for our friendship.
Your smile was everything for me even then and now.

I was a friend
I was a friend you trusted
A friend you told everything

I was a friend
A friend who helped you
A friend who helped you through the worst

I was a friend
A friend for whom you cried
Cause you couldn't live without me

I was a friend
A best friend
With whom you wished to stay till the end
You promised to stay with me and never leave

I am a friend
Already promised to stay by your side, till the very end.

Huh !!! This is just filmi for you

Tu meri mohabbat bhool gayi hai
Tu apni bhi ibaadat bhool chuki hai
Har pal jab meri aarzoo karti thi
Ab toh tu meri kashish bhi bhool chuki hai

Teri mohabbat mein khud ko nilaam kar diya hai
Zindagi ka har lamha tere naam kar diya hai
Mohabbat ki rahon mein agar saath main chhod deta
Khud se hi poochh le, zinda kya tu reh leta

Teri har mushkil mein main tere aas paas tha
Ek aisa waqt tha jab har pal main hi khaas tha
Khud hi baandhi zanzeer mere paav mein
Aur kehte ho kachcha dhaga hai, tod ke nikal jaoge

Na jaane kyon mujhse mera rab ruth gaya
Waada kiya tha umar bhar ka, char din mein saath chhut gaya
Jaane na kab tak is dil ko behlaoonga,
Yeh bhi ruth gaya toh kaise main jee paoonga

Sad Love Story

I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol.
Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school.
Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. Cheerleader, sexy, and stylish.
Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .
Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric.
Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric.
For she was already attractive enough.
Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care.
Carol wasn't ugly at all.
In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant.
But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't were spaghetti-straps or tubes.
So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn.
For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl.
While Cathlyn was labele d as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol.

Telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was.
And how dumb she looked.
Which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless.
That's life. Carol never gave up though.
She wanted to prove something to Eric.
She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything.
She studied hard, really hard.
She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her.

But she never forgot Eric.
Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker.
Always with the same words.
'I care for you, and I always will'
Because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.
Eric began to realise.
How dumb he had been.
His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn.
Was flirting with other guys.
He regretted for choosing the wrong girl.

Cathlyn broke up with Eric later.
For she had found a wealthier guy.
Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb.
He went to look for Carol.
He knelt on his knees, and said.
"Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise.
She only uttered these words.
"You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one"

Eric felt disappointed.
He didn't understand a word that she said to him.
But they became good friends.
Did everything together.
Eric began to change into someone better.
Because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before.
His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way.
They just accepted him for his looks.
But Carol accepted him for himself .
She changed him.
Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday.
With the same words. She never forgot.

One day, Carol didn't turn up in school.
She didn't come for a week.
At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family.
Because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them.
But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital.
Saying that Carol was about to die.
She had been suffering from cancer.
But Carol forbade them from telling him.
Because she didn't want Eric to worry about her.
But now that she was about to die.
She wanted to see Eric for the last time.
Eric rushed to the hospital.
When he saw how weak Carol was.
Tears began rushing down his cheeks.
He whispered.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?"
She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.

"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.
"You can't leave me!" he said.
"What will I be without you?"
"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."

"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed.
He still couldn't accept Carol's death.
He had only spent a month with Carol.

A month. But Carol changed his life in a way.
A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted.
But he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven.
Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us.
Until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret.
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts.
It's better to tell someone how much you love them.
Rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them.
You'll regret Love is. When we fight till the very last minute.
Just to show and tell someone how much we love them.

you promised me, you'll never do it again
you promised me, you'll never leave
you promised me, w will start a new life leaving our past behind
you promised me, we will build our new world
you promised me, we will make our dreams come true
you promised me, we will stay together forever
you promised me, we will fight against the world
you promised me, we will rise up against all odds

sometimes we fall apart
sometimes we make it through
so tell me what you want
I'll do whatever I can

I can give it a try
I am not gonna cry

sometimes its hard to find the words
to tell you what I feel so deeply in my world,
you are all that really matters
and I LOVE YOU

Every time I'm thinking of you
I don't realize when the distance gets walked out
But the moment I feel your absence,
road becomes longer and minute turns into an hour

Lizard's Love

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tears open the wall. Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls.
When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside hammered into one of its feet. He sees this, feels pity and at the same time curious, as when he checked the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when house was first built.
The lizard has survived in such position for 10 years!?!! In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind boggling.
Then he wondered, how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step - since its feet was nailed!
So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what has it been doing and what has it been eating? Later, don't know from where appears another lizard, with food in its mouth... AHHH! He was stunned and touched deeply. For the lizard that was stuck by nail, another lizard has been feeding it for the past 10 years..
Such a love, such a beautiful love!! Such love happened even on this tiny creature... What can love do? It can do wonders!! Imagine it has been doing it without getting tired for some 10 yrs, without giving up hope on its partner. Imagine could you have done it for someone ? Imagine what a small creature can do but a creature blessed with the brilliant mind can't.

As the technology advances, our access to information becomes faster and faster. But the distance between human beings, is it getting closer as well?

An Amazing Love Story

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. "would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee."

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby? He replied: "when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there". While

saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched.

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home. Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.

They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said:

"My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again".

Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet. She replied.

Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

A LOVE STORY

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background
& that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him:
"How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure,
the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas.
Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you.
If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family,
I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in &
agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies.
They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control.
When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured.
Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh.
She has lost her voice......


The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort,
but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her.
Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone.
Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him,
she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.
. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy.
One day, her friend came & told her that he's back.
She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding.
The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her.
He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language.
Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice.
I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

I'll be the one

I'll be the one

I guess you were lost when I met you
Still there were tears in your eyes
So out of trust and I knew
No more than mysteries and lies

There you are, wild and free
Reachin' out like you needed me
A helping hand to make it right
I am holding you all through the night

I'll be the one (I'll be the one)
Who will make all your sorrows undone
I'll be the light (I'll be the light)
When you feel like there's nowhere to run
I'll be the one

To hold you and make sure that you'll be alright
'Cause my faith is gone
And I want to take you from darkness to light

There you are, wild and free
Reachin' out like you needed me
A helping hand to make it right
I am holding you all through the night

To hold you, and make sure that you'll be alright

You need me like I need you
We can share our dreams comin' true
I can show you what true love means
Just take me hand, baby please...

I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run
To make it alright
I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run

I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run
To make it alright
I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run
To make it alright
I'll be the one

To hold you, and make sure that you'll be alright
I'll be the one

I'm not misunderstanding,
but I'm not trying to understand
I'll always be the last man standing
cause I just want to hold your hand

Sometimes a moment gets stuck,
and I don't know what the ****
I run out of knowledge,
and feel like I'm falling from the edge

I'm going nowhere,
no need to raise an alarm
when you are lost n lonely,
you'll be wrapped up in my arms

There is no tear, I won't cry
I'm not even ashamed of not saying a good bye

I have seen it till the end
and I think you never was a friend

I don't even remember the time we spent
you were never there, when I needed a friend

there's nothing I can catch from our past
there was nothing which meant to last

well, you can call me insane
but, I'm tired of hearing your name

I know I'm not cool
but I'm really tired of being a fool

you treat me like a child
and this drives me so wild

sitting on this chair
I think its just not fair
I don't have a clue
what am I trying to prove ?
I'm losing my temper
want to surrender
in your arm
but I'm hearin an alarm
wish if I could run
to you, so my heart won't burn
may be I'm playing
or just delaying
am I lying ?
or just denying
words kept inside
holding onto my false pride
walking on the road
with this unbearable load
I'm trying to hear
changing the gear
you can call me insane
we are driving in opposite lane
I want to speak out
but instead I leak out
how ever hard the roads are
and even though we stay far
I LOVE YOU STILL
I DID, I DO and I WILL

have I told you, how I feel

have I told you, how I feel
when you're not around, my wounds refuse to heal
I'm going through this pain I don't wish to deal
when you are not here by my side, everything seems so unreal

your name is carved on my soul, no need to put a seal
I'm searching into yesterday, a moment with you to steal
even though its all said and done, I LOVE YOU still
no matter what, I DID, I DO and I WILL

feelin lonely

Sometimes when I'm alone and I think of you,
no matter how hard I try, your thoughts drive me crazy

I try to work and fool my mind
I close my eyes, and take a deep breathe
I try to read, but I see your face
when I breathe, I can smell your perfume

When I'm feeling lonely,
I won't run to you,
I won't beg you to stay,
I won't let you know,
but I'll be walking on your way
You won't realize, how much I miss you
So when I'm besides you, I 'll refuse to kiss you

When I'm feeling blue,
I don't have a clue
Why do I need to prove,
how much I love you


Even though we are one soul,
you make me fall
you make me crawl,
when I need you, and you're always far away
I don't know what to do

I keep searching for your presence,
I lose my temper,
I get filled with anger
I tell myself, you love me
though we are apart, you stay here in my heart